The Spiritual Sweet Spot

There are many moments in life when it feels like there is no order in the Universe; when it feels like life is simply a random series of events; that life is just a “crap shoot”, a toss of the die.  And then there are moments when we feel like we are in alignment with the Universe; when we feel like we are exactly where we are meant to be; when we sense that there is a pattern in our lives.  The Spiritual Sweet Spot; those “aha moments” when we feel that the road we have travelled, with all it bumps and curves, has prepared us for this place we are in right now.  Those moments when we feel connected to Spirit.

Three years ago, I was terminated from a job that was very challenging and stressful but incredibly satisfying.  I was terminated suddenly, with little warning, and treated in a very shoddy manner.  At some level, I was relieved; to get away from the dysfunctionality of the organization; to be removed from the stress of the job.  But I was hurt!  I felt betrayed by the man I worked for.  I felt rejected by the organization.  I felt abandoned by my co-workers.  And I was angry; at my boss, at the organization, at my co-workers, and at God!!  I could not believe that I could be treated so unfairly; that I could be terminated when all of my hard work and creativity had rolled out so well.

Of course, as my daughter would say, this is a “first world problem”; there are much bigger injustices in the world.  I am a very lucky person relatively speaking, but still I felt shaken by the experience.  Shaken to the core.  It shook my trust in the Universe; it shook my faith in people; and it resonated with some dark beliefs about my Self.

When I told one friend that I had been terminated, she replied, “The Universe must have something more important for you to do.”  While my head has tried to hold on to that view, my heart has not been in it.  But then, last week, I was organizing around my newest project — a project that has the potential to have a positive impact on a large community — and I realized how much I learned from that other job.  I found myself thinking that the other job had prepared me perfectly for this particular project.  I found myself thinking that this project would never have come about if I were not terminated by that other organization.  I found myself thinking that, perhaps, I am exactly where I am meant to be.  I found myself thinking that, maybe, everything really is unfolding in my life exactly as it is meant to.  And that is a very nice place to be.

About kp

I am a woman and a mother, a sister and a wife. I have called myself a socialist and a feminist, an environmentalist and an activist, a pagan and an atheist. But, at this stage in my life, none of these labels feel right. I am searching; trying to find an inner calm; trying to make peace with life's disappointments; trying to answer the big questions in my own small life.
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7 Responses to The Spiritual Sweet Spot

  1. it’s so relieving when things make sense especially after a painful situation! i’m happy for you :)

  2. It sounds like you’re in a really good place right now. So pleased that you’re feeling that the heavens are aligning! (And I like your daughter’s perspective. So much of what I worry about is inconsequential in the grand scheme of things).

    • kp says:

      Thanks….And it IS a great phrase. Her friend coined that phrase, first world problem, and it is getting daily usage in our house!! KP

  3. Sometimes we do not listen to the Universe so she makes us sit up and listen as she spins our world around to the direction we are meant to be heading….
    Lovely post Kim… and we are always in the right place at the right time, nothing i have found is ever by chance…. we each of us have lessons we learn and take with us as we grow along our road of discovery in that never ending journey called Life!
    Love and Hugs Kim
    Sue xxx

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