It is New Year’s Eve day. I have had a full holiday season; time with my kids, time with my husband, time with extended family, and time with a few close friends. I have had time away from home; time away from work; time away from phones, computers, newspapers and televisions. I have walked among snow laden trees. I have played board games with my family. I have read novels for pleasure. I have re-connected with my children. I feel rested, relaxed and restored.
Today is new year’s eve day; the last day of the year. I woke up feeling hungry for time alone; time to write; time to re-connect with my Self. It is time to move inward; to think about the year that is ending. It is time to consider the habits that do not serve me well; to acknowledge the fears and beliefs that limit me; to think about all of the feelings, habits and beliefs that I want to leave behind with the old year. It is time to focus on the new year; on the new habits I would like to practice; on the relationships I would like to develop; on the attitudes I would like to cultivate; on the life I would like to create.
For me, 2011 was a year of loss and disappointments. It was a year of grief and sadness. It was a year of letting go….of loved ones, of dreams, of illusions. It was a year of Death; a year to clear away the brush, weed the garden, clear the way for new beginnings, for a re-birth. I am ready to move on. I am ready for the new year; for a new stage in my life. I am ready to become the Crone; the woman who is separate but not alone. The woman who, freed of child-rearing and house-keeping, can serve the People with wisdom born of experience. It is time!!
The power of your rebirth brought me to tears. Look out world, here you come!
Thanks Pam…we will see. I find these powerful moments come in spurts and are often followed by backward steps, but today, it feels really fine….Kp
Here! Here! I hear your conviction. It is strong and it is powerful.